Thursday, October 8, 2009

All stopped up (oh no! another whiny post!)

I have so much to say that it's all packed up inside there and I can't figure out a good place to start. I could draw this out into a really gross metaphor, but you get the picture.

Got back to Orange County and have been feeling dazed. I have a bunch of random projects that I'm working on: applying to graduate school, taking an econometrics class, planting a garden, working for my dad's startup, hanging out with the fam, reading articles, writing articles, cooking, trying to start this new blog, trying to exercise, looking into farms for next season.

But going in all these different directions, I'm not sure I'm getting anywhere at all.

Toys "R" Us by Andreas Gursky 1999

My general mood these days is like this Andreas Gursky photo. Bad, huh?

Last night, I went to listen to this farmer at the Fullerton Public Library. He talked about a lot of things that made me happy like picking ripe peaches and treasuring family and driving down roads that blow up so much dust that you have to turn your windshield wipers on. He talked about the number of frost hours that peaches require, and he talked about

continuity: the idea of being connected to a place in a deep way,

in turn nurturing and being nurtured. He was talking specifically about his family's farm in Fresno, but I kept thinking about much I feel out of context and how much I want to put down roots, make a home, invest in land, invest in community.

I heard a great show on the Canadian Broadcasting Network by a neuroscientist who studied the development of children's brains. She talked about how infants are taking in new input 100% of the time -- they are in constant learning mode -- open to new ideas, testing out theories, but not particularly good at focusing on a task. Not very good at letting go of some things to attend to one thing in particular.

I remember specifically that she said it could take up until a persons mid-to-late 20s for their brains to fully develop the capacity to focus in. I'm 24. Perhaps there's time (?)

All this moving around and jumping from this to that has given me an amazing breadth of experience to draw from, but now I'm ready to build something.

2 comments:

  1. How serious are you about grad school? I'd say if you really plan on going, do that first, and in the meantime (waiting to get accepted/for school to start) get a job with some local farm or something. I have no idea where all those farms that sell stuff at the Farmer's Market are, but they must be close-ish.

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  2. I sure enjoy reading your posts. You are an excellent writer. Oh, to be 24 again. It's all an adventure and you want to enjoy every bit of it. For me, life boils down to three things. (Brad's circle of Life) Relationships, Experiences, and Growth. The better your relationships, the better your experiences and the more you grow. The better your experiences, the better your relationships and the more you grow. The more you grow, the better your relationships and the better your experiences. Everything you do will fall into one of those categories. Growing is the key. You have had some of the most wonderful experiences of anyone I know. Around the world, traveling, working, playing. And you have an incredible support group that loves you and will always be there for you. Don't spend too much time ever worrying about life. It's a waste of resources. I have a favorite Swetish proverb that goes "Fear less, hope more, eat less, chew more, whine less, breathe more, talk less, say more, Love more and all good things will be yours." So, there you go. All good uncles get to give a little advice now and again. All my best sweet niece of mine. I'll look forward to hearing more of your adventures. Uncle Brad

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